[ My - Memories - Forever ]

[ This Girl ]

Name: Nadiana Nasir Khan
Nicknames: Nad, Nadia, Diana, Ana
Birthday: 2nd November 1985

[ My Loves ]

Drinks:!!GREEN TEA!!
Food:Chocolates Chocolates and more chocolates! + anything spicy
Songs:Slow, love romantic ones (very touching)
[ My Detests ]

Those who neglect their friends and only use dem wen necessary
Those who never fail to make me angry
Those who think that I'm someone who can be pushed around
Those who likes to force my to do things i hate
Those who always take away the joy in my life

[ More ABout Me ]

Living in a 4 room flat wid 3 of the most 'irritating' guys ever. My two brothers and father. So, I'm obviously the only gal in the house! Favourite dish to cook- Chicken curry and 'Lemak cili padi'. Currently still training to be a competent Registered Staff Nurse bonded to SGH. Love to go out and simply enjoy the moments with my friends and love ones. Visit my friendster for more information; nad_021185@hotmail.com

[ My Memories ]

+April 2006+
+May 2006+
+June 2006+
+July 2006+
+August 2006+
+October 2006+
+March 2007+

Monday, March 12, 2007

Hey, I noe, it's been awhile since my last entry.. i was kind of buzy.
Noe wat.. yesterday, i went for my friends wedding well, she's 26, time for her to get married.. But the moment i hear the Kompang and the groom making his way to the pelamin(stage), plus seeing the kecohness (eargerness/ excitement) the families suddenly became, I feel like tearing..My eyes were already watery.. but i noe tat it's wrong for me to actually cry cause it's not my wedding! So, I maintain ah..I was juz really really sad and fearful if I'm ever going to get married in the future.. Lots of ideation were playing ard in my particularly small brain. Firstly, the most important woman in my life, someone I use to share bout the lists of things, criteria, behavior i wan and dun wan to see in my future husband won't be the there. Someone who taught me a lot bout being a gal.. the only person whom brings me up to my feet, hold me tight and teach me how to walk again everytime i fall ever since I'm small till she's gone. Secondly, my family is, already falling apart.. and I'm juz too tired to make things better.. Dad always asked wat are my problems.. But I'm nvr able to share wid him fully for he'll always sae we're in the wrong and he's always right. Oh, dad!! U juz dun get it.. u juz can't feel the headache i have deep inside everything u treat my elder brother like trash and my younger brothe like diamond. U shout, u use all kind of vulgarities to my elder brother, always wanna fight, always making a scene outside the house. Treaten to kill him, treaten to do everything possible juz to get back at his mistakes wen moms still ard and it continues on even after my moms gone. Have u ever think bout us?Wen my mom's ard, i will always stick by her, crying and comforting her at the same time.. but nw, who can i ever turn to wen episodes like tat happen? The sad part is tat i have to protect my brother frm getting hurt my u and also seek comfort myself. Have u ever come and hug me, saying tat everything is going to be fine and tat u're doing all tis things for our own gd wen ever tis kind of big arguements surfaces?? NVR!.. I fall, they fall and we have to seek for our own comfort for we can't find comfort in our own family.. Do you even noe tat all the bad episodes are stil fresh, always repeating itself at the back of my tiny little head?? I dun wan the same kind of episodes to ever occur again. Especially not in the verge of my new life or I'll break down into pieces and nothing will ever help to fix tat.. How bout families? my moms side, my dads side?? how much my dad dislike tis and tat.. OMG!! I can't handle family politics. Tats y I'm fearful of marriages. Y can't we juz stay young and maintain at tis age?? hmmm.. can i still lead a proper and happy life if i dun get married at all?? Oh, I'm too jinx to have a peaceful life...