[ My - Memories - Forever ]

[ My Memories ]

+April 2006+
+May 2006+
+June 2006+
+July 2006+
+August 2006+
+October 2006+
+March 2007+

Friday, May 26, 2006

Men are better up- bringer then women? (No offence to the guys thou)

What makes you think that men are better up- bringers than the women??

What makes you think that a family can't function as well with only a mom?

What makes you think that mom can't handle situations better then you husbands do?

So who is better @ taking care of a family? Men? Women?

!!-Let the debate begin-!!

Monday, May 22, 2006

I'm HOME!!

Slept over @ yan's place during the weekend.. Thanks ya for having me over.. I'm so glad tat things Btwn u and him worked out. Well, basically both of us were two totally depressed souls.. so, decided tat we need each others company. Had a great time sleeping!! We slept extremely long!! Love sleeping over @ her place.. For there's no disturbance like..
( my dad's nagging everytime he comes home, my brothers phone which kept on ringing thru out the morning, having to wake up @ certain time juz to wake my brother or daddy up)
Anyway, love you sis!! Take care always.. And thanks for the sandals which fits me perfectly well..

I'm happy today cause...
1) Farhan's out of my head
2) I'm feeling much more better
3) Emotionally stable and very rationale now ( i hope)
4) Menses ending soon I hope
5) I'm juz so so glad tat today is sunday cause HE'S BACK!!! Miss him so so much..

I'm so so crazily in love..Hahaha.. Thanks for entertaining my nonsense ya ppl..

Hey ppl.. wen u all wan to book chalet?? School holiday starting late May u noe..

The usual self now,
Nutty Nad

Friday, May 19, 2006

Friday morning..

1) Had menses...Thought of Farhan--> Hate myself
2) Think bout the events in my life, bout wat I've done--> Hate myself
3) Thought whether I've made the right decision--> Hate myself
4) Being too emotional--> Hate myself
5) Felt so lonely--> Hate myself
6) Cried for no gd reasons--> Hate myself

Therefore, my Saturday morning was extremely horrible!!

Went online-- Only trustable fren ard--> Wan (@ tat point of time)

Chat wid Wan, tol him I need to talk and I started to type everything tat comes from my heart.. I noe I wasn't thinking.. I'm juz so so emotionally unstable.. he ask me to go out.. Well.. FORCED me to go out.. he thinks tat I shouldn't be alone @ tis point of time.. So, I agreed..

Chat wid Caili, she tol me it's due to hormones.. Chatted further, both of us agree tat we need a special device, medicine or electric current tat could help erase part of our memories tat we nvr want to remember.. For the benefit of our future..

So anyone got any idea where can we purchase it????

OUTING -->

Went to bugis to eat den we walk to suntec.. walked ard.. Yeah, He complaint a lot cause he's tired and breathless.. but nice of him to continue the 'journey' listening to my whinings.. and compliants.. hehe.. Thanks ya..

Ate bread, ice cream.. den we sat @ Starbuck.. He read his comics.. And me.. day dreaming bout my dearest Faizal ( Miss you) while looking so so depressed..

Had ideas for chalet.. Went hunting for the gadgets..

Slept over @ my best friends (yan) house.. May the two depressed souls rest in peace..

I hate having menses.. I hate having menses.. I hate being so emotionally vulnerable.. I hate to think a lot..

Faizal's not in singapore and tat makes matters worst.. I'm such a wreck..

Nutty Nad

Sunday, May 14, 2006

I smell horrible now!! I smell like roasted BBQ Nadiana.. I'll take a bathe after tis entry!! hehe..

Made chicken porridge the other day.. So sorry dear didn't give some to u.. I'll cook specially for u the next time.. If u dare to eat!! haha.. Happy with the results cause my brothers and father ate the food!! So, in conclusion, only cook once in awhile so tat these ppl will and can appreciate wat I cook!!

Today.. Can't sleep well so, got up and read up the cook books tat my mum left for me..

OMG.. the sight of the food makes my tummy growl! Ah ha!! Lets make popiah wid curry beef!!
Spend the whole afternoon cutting the ingredience, cooking the fillings and folding the popiah while talking to my dearest on the phone.. and watching tv @ the same time.. ( I'm so so multi- tasking.. even though he complaint tat I cook too slow!!)

Total popiah made- 150 pieces..

Yeah!! I finish preparing all.. But guess wat.. Before I even fry the popiah, my whole house was so so smoky! Thanks to me forgetting tat I already heat up the pan of oil!! Thank god there is no fire alarm in my house!! If not, u'll see Miss Nadiana in the hospital kena hospitalize due to burns!!

Oh yes.. Tis final entry is for my dearest.. who visits my blog at times..

U've been very very sweet and yes.. I miss you a lot!! Pls do me a very simple favour.. Do express me wat ur thinking.. or even ur plans.. I know somethings u dun noe I noe!! Ha ha.. Does it sound complicated? Anyway, thanks foe listening to my complaints.. Love the way you look @ me!!! hehe.. Muacks

Nutty Nad

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

You guys must be thinking.. OMG.. Nadiana seems and act like a heartless b****. How can I just throw away a 4 year relationship just like tat.. Dun I have any emotions? Will I ever look back and regret my actions for dumping the most eligible bachelor. Yeah, his intelligent, achiever, bla bla bla.. But guess wat! I dun give a damn bout your 'trophies' any more!

For these past 4 years of our relationship, I dumped you more den 10 times (uncountable).. So wat does tat conclude? I dun give a damn about wat ur mother or family think! Have they ever spare a thought for me? Have they ever put themselves in my shoes? My goddness! I'm a girl ok! Not a guy! Oh yes.. in case u ppl forget, FARHAN is a GUY!! Not a girl!! I've never been treated like how your family treated me. I've never been blamed like your family did. I never felt so degrading till your family came into my stupid damn life. I have enough! Enough confrontations, enough blaming, enough pointing fingers, enough! ENOUGH!!

I told you everything that has been going on in my family cause I tot I need a shoulder and someone to depend on for I felt so lonely without someone so so valuable in my life. But tat doesn’t mean tat you can share MY life stories wid ur mom! And wat.. let her criticize my family? Let her give me advise bout how I should handle the situations at home? GUESS WAT!! Ur solutions are all self- centered! I dun need dem! I noe, my family isn’t as ‘perfect’ and as great as your family but I never regret being born into this less fortunate family of mine. I am contented with what I have.. I am contented being who I am and what kind of environment I’m living in.. At least I still have my less than perfect father and brothers.. And guess wat MR, I LOVE MYSELF MORE DEN I LOVED YOU!! I dun need you in my life for I'm stronger den u can ever imagine. @ least I'm independant! And tat matters a lot.. How can you love someone when you dun even love yourself?

Everybody says tat you sacrifice everything for me.. Yeah.. thank you. Ur sacrifices is greatly appreciated. So now, I’m the heartless b****! I dun care bout wat u ppl think! Guess wat, if Farhan is so great den why dun you ppl take him as ur BF! I’m not trying to push him ard.. All I’m saying is tat maybe him and his family needs someone who’s not like me. I’m not a perfect person. I'm not the sweet simple girl you’ll want to be ard with! I’m not the kind of girl you ppl can step over no more.

I'm not a heartless b****….

Because I LOVED you, I never listen to my parents went they told me never to contact you ever again after your family confronted mine.

Because I LOVED you, I ignore about the advises my teachers gave me wen they first got to know tat i'm attached to you.

Because I LOVED you, I accept the fact tat I have to go to your house just so tat we can patch

back even though ur the one who wan me back badly.

Because I LOVED you, I have to be confronted by your mom for trying our very first kiss.

Because I LOVED you, I have to stand alone without your back up wen your family asked me over to your house just for them to accuse me of things I never did.

Because I LOVED you, I have to entertain your mom’s call and just listen to her nagging at me when u can’t handle our relationship problems and vent it at home.

Because I LOVED you, I still date you even when my grandparents disallow me to continue being ard you.

I’m not a b***** from hell. All I wan to bring across here is tat I DID LOVE you when we’re together. I did love you even wen I hate you. I did love you for our 4 years of our relationship. I cared a lot for u.. I never cheated on you. Have I ever looked at other guys wen I’m attached to you? Throughout our relationship, I have only you in my heart. I only began to widen my circle of friends wen we broke up.

You said you love me even after everything tat I've done to you.. Oh yes.. So now everyone can confirm TAT I"M A B****!!! Oh yes Mr, Ur the noble one.. For loving me and I'm the devilish girl who broke everyone's heart! GO TO HELL!! So, I am now labelled as a b**** cause you still love me till now and I couldn't care less and I'm out of love wid you? What is LOVE?? What is tat? I've been doing some searching but yet, I can't find the correct words or expression to define whats love.. So pls can someone pls enlighten me about the meaning of love?!!

I hate it when you know my weakness for you can always use it to your advantage!

I hate you for hurting me so much.. always causing me to lose my pride..

I hate you for saying I did all this because of you.. especially wen ltr, U'll want something back in

return.

I hate you sacrifizing everything for me and wen things go wrong, you blame everything on me.

I hate you wen you blame me for your average or below den average grades - due to our quarrels.

I hate it wen you sae you love me but nvr love urself.

I hate you ! I hate you! I hate you! So wat if all of them sae tat we are very very compatible?

Just because we look compatible we have to be together? Oh yes.. we are compatible a few years ago.. (at least i tot so)

To all my friends and my dearest sister.. yan thanks for all the emotional support. I really really appreciate it.. U’ve help me through it all.. From comforting me wen I’m tearing to calming me wen I’m angry and making me see the bigger picture wen I’m confused. I love you all.. muacks..

To my dearest Faizal, I won’t cheat on you.. I’m very very greatful to have someone like you in my life.. I’m so greatful to have a man guiding and complimenting my rights and correcting my wrongs.. muacks..

Nutty Nad

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

A little research I would love to share with my mates..

Does your maturity match your chronological age? Do you grow a little wiser, a little more mature each year of your life? Or have you just lived one year that many times? To find out if you're growing up or just getting older consider the following measurements of age.

MEASUREMENTS OF AGE

Chronological Age- Measurement of the time a person has lived---his or her age in years.

Physiological Age- The degree to which systems of the body have developed relative to chronological age

Intellectual Age- whether a person's intelligence is below, above, or equal to his chronological age

Social Age- Social age compares social development with chronological age. It asks the question; "Does this person relate as well socially as he should for his age?"

Emotional Age- Emotional, like social age, compares emotional maturity with chronological age. It asks the question; "Does this person handle his emotions as well as he should for his age?"

A person may be chronologically mature, but emotionally immature. A person may also be intellectually mature, but emotionally immature. There is no correlation between chronological age, intellectual age, social age, or emotional age. Just because someone is "grown-up" by chronological age doesn't mean they are "grown-up" emotionally. A person whose body and mind is adult, but whose emotional development is that of a child can wreak havoc in the lives of others as well as himself.Your relationships are dependent upon your total emotional development. The best way to understand your relationships is to understand yourself.

SYMPTOMS OF EMOTIONAL IMMATURITY

1. Volatile Emotions- Emotional volatility is indicated by such things as explosive behavior, temper tantrums, low frustration tolerance, responses out of proportion to cause, oversensitivity, inability to take criticism, unreasonable jealousy, unwillingness to forgive, and a capricious fluctuation of moods.

2. Over-Dependence- Healthy human development proceeds from dependence (I need you), to independence (I don't need anyone), to interdependence (we need each other). Over-dependence is indicated by; a) inappropriate dependence, e.g. relying on someone when it is preferable to be self-reliant, and b) too great a degree of dependence for too long. This includes being too easily influenced, indecisive, and prone to snap judgments. Overly-dependent people fear change preferring accustomed situations and behavior to the uncertainty of change and the challenge of adjustment. Extreme conservatism may even be a symptom.

3. Stimulation Hunger- Demanding immediate attention or gratification and being unable to wait for anything. Stimulation hungry people are incapable of deferred gratification, which means putting off present desires in order to gain a future reward. Stimulation hungry people are superficial and live thoughtlessly and impulsively. Their personal loyalty lasts only as long as the usefulness of the relationship. They have superficial values and are too concerned with their appearance, etc. Their social and financial lives are chaotic.

4. Egocentricity- Self-centeredness. It's major manifestation is selfishness. It is associated with low self-esteem. Self-centered people have no regard for others, but they also have only slight regard for themselves. An egocentric person is preoccupied with his own feelings and symptoms. He demands constant attention and insists on self-gratifying sympathy, fishes for compliments, and makes unreasonable demands. He is typically overly-competitive, a poor loser, perfectionistic, and refuses to play or work if he can't have his own way. A self-centered person does not see himself realistically, does not take responsibility for his own mistakes or deficiencies, is unable to constructively criticize himself, and is insensitive to the feelings of others. Only emotionally mature people can experience true empathy, and empathy is a prime requirement for successful relationships.

Are you emotionally mature?

CHARACTERISTICS OF EMOTIONAL MATURITY
1. The Ability to Give and Receive Love- Emotional maturity fosters a sense of security which permits vulnerability. A mature person can show his vulnerability by expressing love and accepting expressions of love from those who love him. An immature person is unduly concerned with signs of "weakness" and has difficulty showing and accepting love. The egocentricity of immaturity will allow the acceptance of love, but fails to recognize the needs of others to receive love. They'll take it, but they won't give it.

2. The Ability to Face Reality and Deal with it- The immature avoid facing reality. Overdue bills, interpersonal problems, indeed any difficulties which demand character and integrity are avoided and even denied by the immature. Mature people eagerly face reality knowing the quickest way to solve a problem is to deal with it promptly. A person's level of maturity can be directly related to the degree to which they face their problems, or avoid their problems. Mature people confront their problems, immature people avoid their problems.

3. Just as Interested in Giving as Receiving- A mature person's sense of personal security permits him to consider the needs of others and give from his personal resources, whether money, time, or effort, to enhance the quality of life of those he loves. They are also able to allow others to give to them. Balance and maturity go hand in hand. Immaturity is indicated by being willing to give, but unwilling to receive; or willing to receive, but unwilling to give.

4. The Capacity to Relate Positively to Life Experiences- A mature person views life experiences as learning experiences and when they are positive he enjoys and revels in life. When they are negative he accepts personal responsibility and is confident he can learn from them to improve his life. When things do not go well he looks for an opportunity to succeed. The immature person curses the rain while a mature person sells umbrellas.

5. The Ability to Learn from Experience- The ability to face reality and to relate positively to life experiences derive from the ability to learn from experience. Immature people do not learn from experience, whether the experience is positive or negative. They act as if there is no relationship between how they act and the consequences that occur to them. They view good or bad experiences as being caused by luck, or fate. They do not accept personal responsibility.

6. The Ability to Accept Frustration- When things don't go as anticipated the immature person stamps his feet, holds his breath, and bemoans his fate. The mature person considers using another approach or going another direction and moves on with his life.

7. The Ability to Handle Hostility Constructively-When frustrated, the immature person looks for someone to blame. The mature person looks for a solution. Immature people attack people; mature people attack problems. The mature person uses his anger as an energy source and, when frustrated, redoubles his efforts to find solutions to his problems.

8. Relative Freedom from Tension Symptoms- Immature people feel unloved, avoid reality, .are pessimistic about life, get angry easily, attack the people closest to them when frustrated --- no wonder they are constantly anxious. The mature person's mature approach to live imbues him with a relaxed confidence in his ability to get what he wants from life.

Therefore, given these article, It's important for us to noe tat maturity not only depends on our age.. there's lots of contributing factors.. Oh yah, BTW, to all the guys out there.. Be aware tat girls are looking for social and emotional maturity more den intellectual. Cause.. come on guys.. face the facts.. Girls/ women nowadays are getting more and more intelligent.. They dun need more competitors.. They need complements..

Nutty nad

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Attachments over.. On holiday till 12 June!!

Holiday plans:-

Spend quality wid my dearest Faizal
Gals day out wid my best gal friend.. ( It's been a long time since we have sleep overs.. maybe wen u free.. Miss U lots sis!!)
Enjoy and have fun going out wid my poly frens.. mummy.. elder sis.. younger bro.. glen.. Lch.. Fizah.. Pei Shan.. - Chalet!!! I wan to play and play.. hehe .. Mahjong pls!!
Do my household chores.. Tidy up my room and discard all unnecessary stuff.. Ensure tat my room is ready for my adult life..
To cook and explore different cuisines.. and invite my friends over for a feast.. ( still planning..)
Visit and give a big big hug and a wet wet kiss to my dearest grandparents!!
To relax and enjoy the existence of SCV!

Things to think about in life:-

To think carefully of what i wan in my life.
To set specific goals for me to achieve.
To state down accurately of my expectations i wan in my future.

Daddy;

Had a small talk wid daddy.. Asked me lots and lots of question about him.. The more he asked, the more worried I become.. I mean, I'm so not use to have tis kind of small talk wid my dad. I mean.. I dun like to talk about my personal life . And as usual, he love to talk about marriage.. OMG.. I'm so not ready to talk about it.. Die.. maybe next time, I should come out wid a script of what to reply to these ppl.

Faizal;

He's been a sweet heart as usual.. Followed him into JB to pump his petrol.. OMG.. the atmoshere at the custom was extemely horrible.. Noise and air pollution- seen/ heard and felt. These bikers are so so funny and cute.. I mean they actually horn and horn just to get the attention of the staff there so tat the queue can move faster.. So funny how they have to squeeze in between each other juz to get movin and stay in the line.. And oh yes.. the fried maggie and the burger there is superb!! If I were to live in JB... Guarantee I'll grow fat!! Ya, I noe, my grandma and faizal will be super happy if i gain wt.. Hey.. but guess wat. I"M NOT UNDERWEIGHT!! haha.. BMI is normal and acceptable..

Facts borrowed from someone who would prefer to be known as Han.. Hope you dun mind me posting up in my blog cause i think it's really essential to share wid my frens.. thank u so so much..

BEST MAN WINS!
Never believe in tat term....

Who ever believes in tat term will get into trouble himself. . . .

Worst if even the gal believes in tat...

A person in love could do anything.. Yes, about anything....

They can suddenly change thier characteristic...Bullshit!

It is just like a role play actually.. They can't change in one night.

Habits r natural. They simply act n hope they'll change overnite.

The term of 'Best Man Wins' can only occur if the gal has no relatioship or wat so ever so.

Only then, the guy could use that term. But this is still bad!

The guy now have to pretend and act! Just to show how stable, loving, caring or watever the gal one him to be.

The real fact is, he is not wat he is. Did i mention about looks...? No, only stupid blonde would go for looks.

Today, gals are much more concern about stability rather then just a piece of good look.

So gals out there, if you know there's a few guys tat know each other, chasing for u... Run!!! I'm sure you could find somebody out of tat group.

Love is never a triangle. It is just a parrell line. U to him and him to u. That is it. Dun be blinded even by thier tears.

Run! Run as far as u can.

The best advise coming from a man, himself.

Well.. tat's all for now.. anymore updates you guys wan to noe.. juz give me a buzz ya!! The sms queen is more den happy to entertain u!! Muacks.. see you guys soon!!

Nutty Nad